It's Friday and I can say I survived the week!! I've had a second pretty bad pain week in a row now. I did go to work each day this week but several days were very much a struggle for me. I did have one "good" pain day this week, my first one in over two weeks. My definition of a good pain day is a 3-4 on the pain scale without the use of medications. That night the pain did get worse but it was a much needed relief to how I have been feeling. I saw my doctor again today and we're changing up my meds up again. The Rx I've been on for a couple months now that was supposed to help dull nerve pain has not worked. She's taking me off that medication and putting me back on an anti-inflammatory. I had previously been on prescription anti-inflammatorys for about 21 years. She had taken me off because those can be very damaging to my liver and kidneys. My pain over the past few weeks has gotten worse and it's time to put those back in the equation. Hopefully my organs will be okay, and almost more importantly to me at this point, is that the pain will start to lessen sometime soon.
I was in so much pain leaving my doctor's office today it was difficult to drive home. Thankfully my hands weren't in horrible pain so I was able to grip my steering wheel but the rest of me was in a lot of pain. I just said a prayer and drove home. I made it and took pain pills and muscle relaxants right away and I'm doing a little better right now. I am grateful for the strength I've received beyond my own so many times through this. There have been several times when the pain and exhaustion from this was just so much I didn't think I could take another step but yet somehow I could. I know that I'm receiving heavenly help. I'm grateful for all the prayers that have gone out in my behalf, they truly have lifted me up. I'm still hopeful that someday this "acute" phase I'm in will go away and I can get back to a somewhat "normal" way of life. After my first blog post a dear friend emailed me saying "I want you to know that you inspired me to be more grateful for the good health that I do have. I will work harder today to put it to a good and purposeful use!" I really liked that response. I too want to use the health I do have do good and purposeful things. While my disease is in no way life-threatening, it is very real and has changed my life forever. I hope everyone will remember that their bodies are a gift from above and we have them only for a certain amount of time, in this lifetime anyway. We need to take care of them as best we can and not take for granted that we will always have good health. You never know what might happen, whether due to an illness, injury, or accident, things can happen in the blink of an eye. I am so grateful that I do have the gospel in my life and I know that one day I will be resurrected to a perfect pain-free and disease free body. That is a promise to all of Heavenly Father's children, whether they believe in Him or not.
This weekend I'm excited to be able to have church come to me via Satellite television. Every 6 months my church has General Conference where members world wide are able to listen to the words of the Prophet and Apostles and other leaders of the church. I hope all of you watching it will enjoy it. For those of you not familiar with it and are interested you can watch it on byu tv if you have satellite or on lds.org on the internet.
Tonight Donna's kids are supposed to be coming over and we're going to watch Tangled. I've heard it's really good and am excited to see it. I'll report back on what I thought. Until next time....
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